The World’s a RollerCoaster, and I am not strapped in.

- damn it!!!!its 3:45 am and i havn’t got a sleep yet!i’m damn wasted of getting in to pervertion…!!but this time for doing it a thousand times, i screwed up!shit i’m so dumb that i just realize right now that i can’t  make it  when i’m drunk!!!shit!is it fuckin’ natural that you feel you are not in the mood sometimes?i’ve been bored of doing so and i think i gotta have a space for myself  without thinking ‘bout it!….!i feel like an impotent or having an erectile dysfunction or arousal problem…i didn’t make at this time and i just can’t sleep ayt now without tellin’ somebody ‘bout it!its bullshit!!!shit shit shit shit!!!!i feel stupid ayt now!it made me feel less a man because of this!i shoudn’t have been drinking too much of liquor if i’m gonna bump with anybody!!!!damn it!

inaantok nako!

i always wanted to discuss a controversial topic with jairo. A lot of things are already cleared in my mind, but there’s this topic that i can’t really make any point. This is relating about good and right. simple, isn’t it? still, a lot of possible counters make it a dilemma for me. Till one time, i was inspired to think. maybe now, i already made my point, hopefully. :D

First off, What is good?

Before one can say whether or not something is good they first consider the reason why it is perceived to be good. To say “I am good” while being responsible for things that cause conflicts or harm, emotionally or physically, this statement cannot be true. We may do things that are perceived to be good until one is aware of the disadvantage effect,the so-called good action has caused.

If all is good to begin with, how can there be any possibility for bad or evil to exist in something naturally good? One who is unaware of their ignorance may commit an act that is perceived to be bad or evil by one who believes they are aware that such an act is bad or evil. So could this person who is unaware of the evil act committed in fact be evil or are they only perceived to be evil? If one who is in confinement commits an act that would be normally be perceived as evil if someone else were around but they are in fact unaware themselves of such an evil, who is to say such an act is evil? Would this not be considered a mistake? Are there not small mistakes as well as big mistakes? Are mistakes not events to learn from? If evil causes one to learn, can there not be some good that results from evil? Doesn’t a person’s conscience decide whether or not such an act is bad or evil as a result of the emotion they experienced? If one is in solitude and commits an act that results in a feeling of guilt or shame, then they would they not perceive such an act as bad or evil on their own? Even when such an act is once desirable and causes temporary pleasure the consequences of the act may ultimately lead to a feeling that is unsatisfactory and result in a feeling of guilt or shame. Enigmatic, isn’t it?

What is good? Maybe you can tell me now. :D

I’ve come to realize as i’ve gotten older, how much uncertainty we truly have in life.

As kids, we become drawn into ficticous images of what we’re to be, certain things we want to accomplish…

But more so the not, i’ve found myself changing my mind quite a bit.

I want this…or…I want that…

and we get stuck in this predicament of “what the crap am i doing?”

haha.

it’s true though. lately i’ve been questioning everything so much.

will i be doing what i’m supposedly planning right now, in the next few years.

will i fail? will i succeed?

Best bet is to work hard. PRAY hard. and ask God for the guidance.

i have no idea WHY i just wrote this blog. ( tumblr is all over)

But it’s just something i was thinking.

I’ve been asked this question so much in the past couple of days, weeks, and months.

If you could know what lies ahead of you…and have a script to your life…would you want it to know?

sometimes i say, WOW i would LOVE TO KNOW!(sometimes we really wanna know how thing’s gonna turn out)! because then we would know sorrow and saddness…and how to prepare for it.

But it would then take away the excitement of the Good times…because we’re already expecting it to happen.

In a way i wish i knew…but for the most part. i’m glad every day is a new day and we have (to some extent) control as to what or how we’re going to turn out.